I’m Alive… Promise.


    • Hi friends. It’s me. Heart is still beating and lungs still breathing. But yes, you’re right; it’s unlike me to go almost three weeks without posting. I want to thank so many of you who have sent emails, thoughtful comments here and on instagram… my heart has been full and tears flow with gratitude knowing that you genuinely care. I feel it and appreciate it, so very much.

 

      • So what’s been going on, exactly? I’ve been reluctant to even say anything because I thought it would resolve quickly without a need for explanation. But because it’s gone on longer than anticipated and to address some of your concerns, I thought I’d explain a bit more.

 

    • My intentions are never to disappoint any of you; but like you, I’m human and sometimes things happen that set us back. Life can be a giant stinky diaper, at times (excuse the comparison; but changing at least 10 a day, it’s the first thing that comes to mind).

 

    • Plain and simple, the weeks leading up to baby coming were less than ideal — stress and some heartache, are general words to describe it. I wasn’t sleeping well — some nights, not even at all. A very intense labor followed. I was completely depleted physically. A few days after we came home from the hospital I developed a breast infection (or so I thought). It was confirmed mastitis; but it was also more. Baby showed signs of thrush. We treated both and had a few days of feeling better. Then WHAM, it hit again — extreme breast pain, the worst flu-like symptoms I’ve ever had… the aches… chills… but ironically, no fever.

 

    • Like anyone on a medical quest to nowhere, I started googling the heck out of my symptoms, trying to put two and two together. My conclusion? Systemic candida or a yeast infection in my blood stream. Unlike traditional localized yeast infections, systemic has concerns for getting comfortable in various parts of the body and even the organs.

 

    • After visiting my doctor, my conclusion was confirmed. There’s not a whole lot that can be done… and what can be treated medically can have complications with serious adverse side effects for me and the baby.

 

    • So, right now I’m working through it — changing my diet, trying to get more rest, and mentally going to that warm sandy beach!

 

    • I have faith that I will get through this; and I’m feeling very positive about it all… even though there are still some unknowns.

 

    • One of the biggest joys in my life is creating: with my family, through photography, food, silly videos, and everything else; and then sharing it here with all of you. It’s almost therapeutic for me and so in that regard alone, I’ll be back soon. I just need to recover a bit more before I jump all the way back in. BUT… (that’s a big one, and I cannot lie! ha) I did manage to snap newborn pics and write down baby doll’s birth story. So those will be coming here, shortly.

 

  • In the meantime, thank you for being patient with me and our family; and for your continued love, support, and prayers! xo

 


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