- Midweek date night to the theatre – Les Miserables. Cufflinks – Valentine gift found HERE.
I like to think of myself as an optimist. Yet, far too often, I find myself worrying when he leaves. I seem to unconsciously take a mental picture to hold onto, just in case. In case of the worst.
I record his twinkly smile, the way he pats LuLu on the head and tells her to be a good girl, his voice when he says family prayer, the heart he draws in the air with his finger and then points it back at me (saying “love you”) – all the little things that would be my last memories.
I know it’s awful to think like that. And when I do, it brings me to tears.
He makes our life full.
And it would be empty without him.
Not entirely sure why I chose to share these heartfelt feelings with you.
I suppose it’s because it happened again.
He requested waffles for dinner; but we were out of eggs. Naturally, he went door to door asking our neighbors. While he was gone, Gage woke up from his nap and asked where Daddy was. He took it so far as to run around the house – in and out of each room hollering, “Daddy? Where are youuuu? You in here? No. In here? Nooo. Mama, where’s Daddy?”
My heart sank.
How would I explain it all to Gage, if he never came back?
I knew Ryan was being his typical self, chatting it up (he’s overly friendly like that). I wasn’t worried in the slightest about him coming back home. In fact, as soon as the front door opened, Gage bear-hugged his legs saying, “Missed you so much, Daddy!”
I suppose the other reason I’m sharing with you, is for a personal reminder: to be thankful for the tiniest of things that he does (even those that may annoy me – for those would likely be the things I’d miss most), for all that he is and all that he strives to be, and to always remember I’m his everything.
Honey, don’t go anywhere. Ever.
We love you too much!
a beautiful reminder to not take those whom you love for granted – thank you! <3
Beautifully written. A great message indeed, we all need to appreciate all that each day offers. Thanks for the reminder. Shauna {www.shaunawyrick.com}
One of the most beautiful posts I have ever read….
Made me think and miss those little things my husband does…
Love is truly a gift, isn’t it?
Oh yes it is…. It make you feel alive…. and thoughts of morning hugs and things we did the day before always help me through the day at work =))) They make me smile like a fool =)))
Oh Missy, I do the same thing. In fact, sometimes I worry myself sick. My lovey is the glue that holds our family together. He’s our light & our rock & I don’t know what I’d do without him.
PS, do you mind me asking where you got Ryan’s cuff links? I showed my fiancé & he won’t stop talking about them 🙂
You can find them – http://www.etsy.com/shop/alliterationz
My husband is former police officer, I lived that way for 5 years daily. It is tough, I still have many moments like that. It makes me realize that the depth of the love I have for him is just a sliver compared to the depth of God’s love for US. How much it must hurt Him for us to wander. Love is definitely the most precious gift.
Beautifully said, and so very true. Can’t begin to comprehend the depth of sacrifice that is given for those who serve and those who worry about them at home. I literally cry for family’s who are separated over seas in the military, for those who rush to the scene of an accident, for those who keep our communities safe. I thank your husband for his service and your support for supporting him through those years.
I’ve always had thoughts like that about my loved ones, but I htink becoming a mom brings out some innate thought process that it weird and beautiful all at once. I often wonder why I think horrible thoughts about the hubby or kids not returning home, or even what would happen and how things would get done if something happened to me. But then it is those little things we would remember about them that would keep us all going. Thanks for the reminder to cherish every aspect of our loved ones….even their annoying quirks! 🙂
I love this, being thankful and grateful is what builds the healthiest relationships in life.
I also love his cuff links – my husband ordered some similar for our wedding day. He hasn’t worn them since but I keep them in my jewelry box and smile every time I see them.
Aw so sweet. I have these thoughts about my husband, too. I just couldn’t imagine!
This is just the reminder that is needed for those that take things for granted. My love and I were just talking about this last night, we are getting married in 3 months and I cherish all that we have. We are lucky to have love, be loved and to share our love. You your husby and kids are very lucky to have that in their everyday life.
This the sweetest post I have read in a long while. Brought tears to my eyes! I am so happy that you have such a great hubs and that your family is complete 🙂 xoxo hugs
I think God is trying to tell me something…this is the second reminder of this very same topic in the last few days…I’ve DEFINITELY been frustrated and cranky lately and needed another reminder today about just how amazing my man is (and he truly is, faults and all). Thank you for reminding me to love him each and every moment! Your words are beautiful and heartfelt and full of wisdom! I’m committing myself to a change today! Xoxoxo
This is such a sweet post… doesn’t your heart sweel?!
Thank you for the reminder!
God blesses us so…
Completely agree!
I don’t know what I would do without my husband. I need reminding every once in awhile. He is the reason our family is what we are, and I would never have made it through the loss our sweet baby Carter without him by my side. Thank you for the reminder today.
Hailey @ Love, Laughter and Lipstick
Beautifully said…and a wonderful reminded not to take what we have for granted – even on days when I’m annoyed 😉
Thank you.
I totally get it – I worry all the time about things like this. I guess the key is making sure the anxiety doesn’t overtake the other aspects of love, which is key, otherwise we never enjoy it! A great reminder though to appreciate our lives every day :).
You rock, Missy. I completely agree w/ you – we need to cherish EACH moment b/c life is fleeting and our boys are SO special… I give way too many hugs and kisses to my boys… but not really enough at all!
” to be thankful for the tiniest of things that he does (even those that may annoy me – for those would likely be the things I’d miss most”
That statement could not be any truer… We would definitely miss the things that annoy us most, for sure.
Thank you for this post Missy!
This was oh so sweet and I can so relate. Although my husband isn’t fighting the bad guys in the middle east he is in the Navy and has been deployed (including the Persian Gulf) and it just really breaks my heart every time it’s time to say good-bye, you just never know what’s gonna happen even to the normally American who drive to their job every day… anything can happen at the most unlikey time.
I’m glad i’m not the only one who has those thoughts. My husband and I have only been married 3 months, but I have had moments where i’ve brought myself to tears thinking about what I would do if I ever lost him. I can’t imagine how that will magnify when we have kids. Oh my heart!
Thanks for sharing your heart!
Missy being a widow myself at the age of 30 this post really tugged at my heart. It was 4 years this November. I have two amazing kids that I thank God for everyday. You are right…I miss the annoying things the most and when I see him in my sons face its so hard not to cry. The hardest thing was explaining it to my children and seeing the pain in there faces; but we have made it through together and are so much closer because of it. Its one heck of a rude awakening, but it has made me so much stronger and so much more appreciative of the time I have with my kids or anyone in our lives. Thank you so much for bringing a smile to my heart today!
I have these thoughts too, and with our second baby due in a few weeks it is on my mind even more these days. I’m so glad that other people think about this too! I would miss my husband more than I can even express if something happened to him. You’re right, we can’t take our loved ones for granted. Thank you for this!
I visit your blog almost daily (then tell my hubs about every night… you see, I want to be you when I grow up.) and yet have never posted a comment until this – I’ve experienced much loss in my life so I have those same thoughts daily so it was nice to read this entry from you and feel not so alone, thank you.
…also, one of my favorite sayings is ”The moments are the gifts”
your words brought tears of gratitude to my eyes…thanks for sharing so much of you with us! sincerely!
Haven’t even finished morning coffee and here I am misty eyed and heart filled…I know and feel exactly what you mean. Boyfriend just left for work, turned to me, winked and said, “I love you and don’t go-a changin’ ” Those are the moments, the moments that flutter and float in and out of our every day lives, how humbling it is to recognise the itzy bitzies of our days.
Thanks for sharing.
Girl….Why you gotta make us all cry :,,) Happy tears anyway. You are blessed!